Ever been wrong?

or how Linda Caroll motivated me to write again

I was mistaken.

Writing a novel is a lonely, arduous, substantial, joyous experience.

But that wasn’t where I was wrong.

The first one, novel that is, was whipped into the best shape I could and when I didn’t know what else to do, I sent that nugget out.

Wrong move.

I had the naive idea that an agent would see my potential and help me where I needed it. Then, we would send that nugget to an editor who would help me shine and polish before it went into the world as an immediate best seller.

After sending the story to 130+ agents—every single one I thought might find interest—I joined a writing group.

After the first time we shared pages, I told the group what I’m going to tell you now: “The good news is: we can all write. The bad news is: we can all write.”

All the pages were good! Really. Each of us had storytelling ability.

The fact is, anyone who tackles a novel, is probably someone who has been told by many people—teachers, friends, loved ones—that they have talent. They possess something special. Otherwise we wouldn’t suffer so to finish a massive tale to share with the world.

I’m fortunate. A professor once took me aside asking how many classes I’d taken in writing (this is my first), or another tell me I might have a future in this (writing).

I was too young to understand your professors don’t say these things to students to be nice.

I am old enough to understand I wish I had taken them at their word.

I was mistaken.

It’s taken me decades to follow through.

A very successful agent read a script and told me to write the next one so we could get them out in the world and get me started. She wanted more than one. That is a vote of confidence.

I was tired and never followed through. Mostly scared, though.

I was mistaken.

When I finally sent out this novel, I hoped someone would help me get the nugget into the proper shape. I had no idea where to go.

It’s not their job to do this.

Selling stuff is for pros. It is not for finding your feet.

I knew this in previous vocations but not for publishing.

I know this now.

Mistakes notwithstanding.


Here’s the post that kickstarted me today:

How writers gaslight themselves by Linda Caroll

If you’ve ever questioned yourself as a writer, this is for you

Read on Substack

Be courageous

There are times when it would be easier to say, “No.” Not do the thing that makes you nervous.

But you can step in to growth or stay in safety.

In truth, crowds aren’t too terribly bad for my temperament. However, I’m more intimidated since my short term ride has come into my life. (This isn’t the place for it but as a white dude I have learned how much representation matters.)

Be courageous, you may find it suits you. Be bold and try. The caveat is you have to be doing all the things to be ready when that opportunity arrives.

As a young man, I jumped many times and it didn’t always work the way I wanted but I’ve been better for it everytime.

As I said, I’m more reticient because of the wheelchair. Do other people care? Probably not. None of them know me either way. It’s my ego. And I’m learning to be better. I have learned much.

Saturday, March 22, 2025 I read at a meeting of Noir at the Bar, an occasional reading series.

Such a fun event. Great writers. Attentive Audience. Talented Emcee. Sharing a stage with terrific writers such as organizer Eric Beetner as well as Adam Sikes, Caitlin Rother, Sean Jacques, DC Frost and John McMahon was an absolute blast.

I even had laughs where they should be and a positive response to the excerpt I chose from Bumped Off.

Wins all around.

It was a vibe.

Check out some pics:

Noir at the Bar

I am excited to share a reading I’ll be participating in on March 22, 2025.

Noir at the Bar is organized by Eric Beetner and this Los Angeles iteration is located at The Book Jewel (6259 W. 87th St.) at 7 pm.

In addition to Eric Beetner and myself, Adam Sikes, Caitlin Rother, Sean Jacques, DC Frost, John McMahon will be reading.

Listen to stories, hang with cool people. It’s a vibe, as they say.