Ever been wrong?

or how Linda Caroll motivated me to write again

I was mistaken.

Writing a novel is a lonely, arduous, substantial, joyous experience.

But that wasn’t where I was wrong.

The first one, novel that is, was whipped into the best shape I could and when I didn’t know what else to do, I sent that nugget out.

Wrong move.

I had the naive idea that an agent would see my potential and help me where I needed it. Then, we would send that nugget to an editor who would help me shine and polish before it went into the world as an immediate best seller.

After sending the story to 130+ agents—every single one I thought might find interest—I joined a writing group.

After the first time we shared pages, I told the group what I’m going to tell you now: “The good news is: we can all write. The bad news is: we can all write.”

All the pages were good! Really. Each of us had storytelling ability.

The fact is, anyone who tackles a novel, is probably someone who has been told by many people—teachers, friends, loved ones—that they have talent. They possess something special. Otherwise we wouldn’t suffer so to finish a massive tale to share with the world.

I’m fortunate. A professor once took me aside asking how many classes I’d taken in writing (this is my first), or another tell me I might have a future in this (writing).

I was too young to understand your professors don’t say these things to students to be nice.

I am old enough to understand I wish I had taken them at their word.

I was mistaken.

It’s taken me decades to follow through.

A very successful agent read a script and told me to write the next one so we could get them out in the world and get me started. She wanted more than one. That is a vote of confidence.

I was tired and never followed through. Mostly scared, though.

I was mistaken.

When I finally sent out this novel, I hoped someone would help me get the nugget into the proper shape. I had no idea where to go.

It’s not their job to do this.

Selling stuff is for pros. It is not for finding your feet.

I knew this in previous vocations but not for publishing.

I know this now.

Mistakes notwithstanding.


Here’s the post that kickstarted me today:

How writers gaslight themselves by Linda Caroll

If you’ve ever questioned yourself as a writer, this is for you

Read on Substack

Noir at the Bar

I am excited to share a reading I’ll be participating in on March 22, 2025.

Noir at the Bar is organized by Eric Beetner and this Los Angeles iteration is located at The Book Jewel (6259 W. 87th St.) at 7 pm.

In addition to Eric Beetner and myself, Adam Sikes, Caitlin Rother, Sean Jacques, DC Frost, John McMahon will be reading.

Listen to stories, hang with cool people. It’s a vibe, as they say.

A New Part of the Journey

I’m starting production on audio versions of all three of my books.

Embarking on this journey isn’t an entirely insane proposition. As some of you may know, I am a professional grade commercial and music video editor. As a film schooler, I’ve taken my fair share of acting classes (with good marks) and voiced over more than a few industrial videos.

I am comfortable with the technology and game, even a little excited, to test my skills at telling my own stories. Heck, in grade school, I was excited for my turn to read aloud. As my brother says, I like to be the center of attention.

Each of these stories has been read aloud many times, to myself and my wife, and, to be honest, I enjoy reading them.

Also, as a person with current disabilities, I have learned about helping others. I never understood that some people were unable to read a book because they can’t turn a page or hold the book or hate it because of dyslexia or can’t see it or a thousand other reasons that I don’t even know about.

Now, I understand and now I’m hoping some people can have a little respite in their lives.

Stories matter.

Anyway, I’m going to record some notes on how I do this along they way. For myself, so I don’t forget, and for you because maybe you’re bored and want to read something.

Today I recorded a test track and worked on the set up. The mic, of course. I’m using Adobe Audition for recording and editing. I’ve also worked on the proper effects, levels and all that gobbly gook to make sure I sound reasonably professional.

On a side note, once back in the day, I edited for Jordan Scott a commercial for The Roots – it promoted their new album on MTV and the like – and I added a bit of video feedback, image decay color rainbow thing to the cut. It looked really cool. In fact, when we sent the commercial for the final recording at the online suite, the post supervisor called to find out how I did it. No one could figure what I did and, to be honest, when I told them all the tech heads freaked out. They’d never heard or seen anything like it.

This is a long way of saying, sometimes I break things to make things.

Should be fun …!